some may see this as a wrong move. some say education is better here. they say i'd have a better life if i study here. i say thats bullshit. true, the economy and government are better here. life may be better when it comes to that aspect. Education isn't the same, thats for sure. I can't say its better here. the system they run on isn't the best for learning. Lectures are huge. way to big for the professors to know anyone's faces. Then we have the much smaller seminars. No, we still don't get the professors. We get TA's or Teacher Assistants. They are not professors. They are not professionals. They are different from the professors. I'd rather have lecture and seminar at the same time. This way, we learn consistently. not from 2 different people who teaches in different ways and may even say different things. its confusing and disorientating. needless to say.. i am having the most difficult time learning anything at all.
with my grades the way they are. i doubt i'll be able to get admitted into Ateneo again. Its as if i'm holding on to the false hope of me getting in once again. odds were against me last time, this time around it seems i have no chance at all.
my choice is to reapply to Ateneo was not based on emotion, but based on experience. I am learning next to nothing with the education system here. it's impossible. call me a coward or anything you want, but i want my university degree and i want to get it in a place i know i will learn from. not a place i was told i would learn from.
im afraid its too late.
i am afraid that my future would be compromised.
if i wanna make anyone proud, i wanna do it the way i know i can do it. not the way they tell me.
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